Cursed trance

The night sky brought forth

The shining stars

We looked upon them

And kissed them all

Until we’re blind

And our lips were

Tired…

We marveled

At the white moon

Gleaming brightly above us

After we made love on the field

We were like wraiths

Reveling in the night

But haunting no one

We were

Secret lovers

I don’t want to go

In to this trance anymore

For we made ourselves mad of this

I don’t want to be

Mad forever

For I had enough of this curse

I bring this curse back to you

Go share it

With somebody else…

A Ghost Caught on CCTV!

I know Halloween is still several months away, but I want to ask you this question:

Do you believe in ghosts?

I do. Ever since I was a kid, I’ve always believed in them. My maid used to tell me her encounters with ghosts. You know how our maids used to scare us with ghost stories when we were kids, right?

But she wasn’t the only one who made me believe in ghosts. Horror movies, horror stories in magazines and the Halloween specials of Magandang Gabi Bayan also did the trick.

Yes, I do believe in ghosts. But that doesn’t mean I was afraid of them. At night, I could go downstairs to get a cracker or a glass of water when I felt hungry or thirsty. Yes, I was proud to be brave!

Until I saw something strange in the CCTV of our house.

A few nights ago when I was about to go downstairs to the kitchen to get a glass of water, I looked at the monitor of the CCTV. I got curious what’s inside the monitor.

It was a ghost!

It was in the shape of a man. He was sitting in the sofa of the unlit living room. I’m not even sure if he’s a ghost because his color was golden. (Yes, I know I sound crazy to you now.)

I screamed and ran to my parents’ bedroom. I used to think that I would be calm in this situation because the first time I saw a ghost when I was younger, I remained calm. However, the last time I saw one, I wasn’t calm.

My parents asked me what’s wrong. I told them about the golden figure I saw in the CCTV.  My dad just advised me to sleep early at night so I won’t see anything out of the ordinary. On the other hand, my mom just smiled and said it’s normal to see ghosts in the CCTV and I shouldn’t be frightened because they’re harmless. It’s still scary, though.

Since I was able to control my fear, I finally went to the kitchen to get myself a glass of water. I still needed to quench my thirst.

This situation was creepy. I’m pretty sure that almost everyone who has a CCTV  has experienced something like this.

Lesson learned: I won’t look at the monitor of the CCTV at night again no matter how tempting it is!

May this ghost meme remind you how difficult it is to be brave at night. Mwahahaha! 😈

How Do I Look?

To tell you the truth, I don’t know myself anymore. I was a rocker who turned into a kikay girl. Yes, I’m into girly stuff now and I don’t listen to rock music anymore. I feel like a different person. Feeling ko kasing arte at landi ko na si Veronica Lodge ng Archie Comics! 

Joke lang! Ha ha!

Of course, I’m still the same introvert person who loves rock music and art. I’m still a geek, but something within me has changed. I used to spend more money on books and tattoos. But lately, I’ve been spending it on clothes. It’s all Jeannie Mai’s fault! 🙂 I’ve been shopping for new fashionable clothes ever since I got hooked on her TV show How Do I Look. 

For those who don’t know, this is what usually happens in the show: A woman who is clueless about fashion (meaning she dresses inappropriately) undergoes a major makeover. She gets dressed and made up with the help of professional stylists.  But before she undergoes the makeover, she receives comments from two people close to her and one celebrity stylist. Those people point out what’s wrong with her style and give her the reasons she needs to change it.

I love Jeannie Mai’s way of hosting. She’s approachable, friendly, witty and open-minded. Jeannie converses well with her guests. She also gives them good pieces of advice. She’s not the kind of host who imposes rules on her guests. She’s not like, “This is what you should wear and not that” or “Do this and don’t do that.” Instead, she explains to them how their fashion styles affects not only their jobs but their families and friends, as well. She’s honest and tactful. How I wish we have a host like her here in the Philippines!

Watching this show helped me understand how important it is to dress well because people judge me by the way I dress. They judge my abilities based on my appearance. If I go to the office dressed in a sloppy or tacky way, no one will take me seriously. It’s easy for us to say that we don’t care about how we look, but in the end we will realize that we should because dressing badly destroys our self-image.

Don’t get me wrong. I kinda know how to dress. I’m not like the guests on that show. I’m not the kind of person who wears a T-shirt and a pair of jeans in my friend’s wedding. I’m not totally hopeless when it comes to fashion. But I have to admit that sometimes I’m too lazy to dress up I just wear the first thing I see in my closet. Sometimes I don’t care about how I look. And sometimes I unconsciously commit fashion crimes. This is something that I’m trying to change. I want to look like I care about myself. I want to look presentable in public.

Right now, I’m starting to like fashion but it doesn’t mean I lost my interest in books and tattoos.

Here’s a short clip from How Do I Look? 

You can watch How Do I Look? on Diva at 8:00 PM (Mondays).

Pepper

This year my summer was less exciting. I didn’t go to nice beaches or any other nice places with my friends because I didn’t feel like it. So I just stayed at home where I watched movies on my 42-inch Samsung TV, read books, and sweated off pounds by playing Just Dance. The only thing that added a bit of excitement to my summer was my having an opportunity to babysit Pepper for two weeks!

Pepper is the dog of my brother’s girlfriend. He is a small, black and brown Chihuahua/Pomeranian mix.  He is sweet and playful. It’s easy to take care of him since he was trained by his mommy/owner. So for two weeks I fed him dog food and cleaned his poop and urine off the floor (because sometimes he forgot to do his business on the stack of newspapers), and my kasambahay washed him in the bathroom. Most nights  he slept beside me in my bedroom.

During this time, I noticed a few things about Pepper:

1. He liked to hide under the chairs, tables, and beds when I ignored him. He would do this when I was busy with Facebook. The little bell around his little neck would come in handy in this situation because when he moved, his bell tinkled so I knew where to find him.

2. His little legs would shake when new people picked him up and carried him.

3. He would cry when his parents (my brother and his girlfriend) left him.

4. He could easily sense if I would  leave him. He would get fidgety when he saw me dressed up and carrying a bag. And then magtatampo siya. 

5. He would get scared when my own dogs Damien and Magic barked at him.  He would move away from them.

6. He had a poor appetite. Usually he would eat only at midnight. My kasambahay and I had to force-feed him at day.

7. He liked to lick the feet of every person he saw.

8. He loved belly rubs! When I touched his legs, he would automatically open them while he was lying on his back for a belly rub.

I’ve grown fond of Pepper/Pepi/Pepito because he made me feel needed even for just a short while. Because of him, I felt the true meaning of unconditional love. He’s the only one who would get too excited when I came home. He would happily jump on my lap! Dogs can really ease your stress. Sometimes I’d rather be with dogs than people.

Here’s my photo with Pepper.

My hair is too short and he’s too young on this photo because it was taken a long time ago. I forgot to take a new picture with him before he went back to his mommy. I miss Pepper so much! I showered him with kisses before he left me. 😦 I’d wait for a very long time before I see him again. 😦 😦